I realised something earlier. I feel like I've got nothing to offer people. I don't know if that comes from spending too much time on the TM message board and away from real people; it's possible. But I sometimes feel like, unless I've got plenty of money, at least one degree, flash clothes and jewellery, and the means to send my kids to dancing/swimming/music lessons then no one's really interested in me.

I don't have any of those things, I'm an overweight single mother on the benefit, with 6th Form Certificate as my highest *qualification*, and my life is far from exciting. That doesn't make me a nobody though! I'm a person, with thoughts, feelings, ideas, passions and talents, just like anyone else. I have to remember that.

Hmmm, where to start ....

Well, I'm fat. And sick of it. And in less than two years time I'll be 40 and I REFUSE to be fat as well. Plus my weight stops me doing things, I pretend it doesn't but it really does. I'm sick of being invisible ... I used to like attention, now I avoid it. AND if I have to go much longer wearing blardy stretchy black pants with elastic waists I'll go insane. I think that'll do to start with. I CAN do this, others have and I know what I need to do.